Anything that is worth the doing is painful, in some way.

[Yes, of course, but the uncertainty would have driven him to madness. Even now, adjusting just to a slight change of course- were he not so relieved in this moment he would be consumed with his anxieties.]

For now, it is what is required of me to do what needs to be done.

[That may change. He would forever be coming to terms with impermanence.]